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Sex, Money, Mind Control: The Zendik FAQ [Dec. 27th, 2011|05:00 pm]
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Yes—as of July 2018—the Zendik FAQ is still here. But, before you read it, I'd like to offer some context.

I posted this FAQ nearly ten years ago, when Zendik was still going strong and I was hoping to curb its abuses by providing detailed information about how its particular brand of mindfuckery worked (I pretty much ignored Zendik's positive aspects, since you could hear all about those from any current Zendik, or read about them at zendik.org). Since then, Arol has died, the Farm has dissolved, and each of us who lived there has gone about composting her Zendik years in her own particular way.

I am choosing to let this FAQ stand, as a historical record. However, I no longer consider it my most illuminating, or nourishing, account of life at Zendik. That honor goes to my memoir, Mating in Captivity (She Writes Press, 2018), available here, at many libraries (if yours doesn't have it, you can request that they order it), and wherever books are sold. In the book I tried, per Tristine Rainer's advice, to "tell the whole truth, with love"; many years of turning my pile (far more fragrant and fertile now than it was in 2008) made that mission possible.

One more thing: If you've found my FAQ by googling "zendik," after meeting someone who used to live there, please do not use it to dismiss that person, or her intelligence, or her unique experience. We Zendiks were, and are, a wildly divergent band of highly idiosyncratic badasses. We moved to Zendik in hopes of doing something beautiful, while escaping the everyday catastrophe of business as usual. As I've said elsewhere, Zendik harbored some of the smartest, boldest, kindest, imaginers and creators I have ever met. Most of us have gained significant wisdom and insight from our Zendik (mis)adventures.

Okay, on to the very vintage, yet potentially still useful, Zendik FAQ.
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From: (Anonymous)
2015-08-16 03:43 am (UTC)
Hello, visited Zendik when they were in Texas. myself and a friend Nicole, now named Nika I think. Anyone know anything about her
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[User Picture]From: emeraldimajia
2015-08-17 03:10 pm (UTC)
I prefer not to speak of people's whereabouts in public. If you email me - madgelma[at]hotmail[dot]com - I will see what I can do to connect you with Nika.
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From: pointy_end_77
2016-01-28 04:34 am (UTC)

More on my cult!

You might find this interesting. One of the members of my cult was our resident film maker and documentarian. In the years since he has left, he made a movie from extensive archival footage and had it premiere at...

wait for it...

Sundance film festival 2016...

Ironic because we had a retreat there in 1992.

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/film/holy-hell/sundance-documentary-buddhafield-cult-reaction/

http://www.vanityfair.com/hollywood/photos/2016/01/holy-hell-buddhafield-photographs

http://variety.com/2016/film/news/holy-hell-director-will-allen-sundance-1201671608/

It's really surreal to see some of those pictures that were part of my life in Variety and Rolling Stone and the LA Times. I hope somebody buys the distribution rights to it so other people can see the film.
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From: (Anonymous)
2017-08-18 08:04 pm (UTC)

I supplied zendix farm with supplies in fl

Yes in the 9th the zendix cake to my shop and wanted to purchase boots clothes cheap of course, what I remember is alot, their ranch in Vero beach fl, the kitchen the family and the leaders, first of all the girls were beautiful and never wore under clothing when they came to see me and the guys smelled
, though smart in their ways they told me that what kept them the all the sex and any girl could be yours.its been a long time since that time,, they called me give joey




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From: (Anonymous)
2018-03-03 12:58 am (UTC)

Is this cult dead?

I remember going to Warped Tour and seeing sellers. I actually had a conversation with Talon one year back in '07 or '08. He seemed like a really nice guy. We talked about Asatru and he actually gave me a copy of the Zendik zine. Honestly, I never really thought too much about the philosophy of Wulf Zendik, but some of the articles, poetry, and other interviews in the zine were interesting. I was curious as to what had become of Talon and this zine, and learned that this Zendik thing is a cult, and now that Arol is dead, the farm was disbanded.
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[User Picture]From: that
2019-01-21 05:41 am (UTC)
Wow. I lived in Austin in the 80s and occasionally saw the Zendik kids on the drag. I kind of dug the freakiness, but I could smell something rotten in their spiel. Then I saw Wulf on access TV and I was like, oh hell no. I found your thread here on my beloved livejournal because I was just listening to Arol and the Zendik band's record from 2002. It's fascinating in an outsider way; clearly, the woman has some charisma, but even as a singer, her presence is oppressive. Your fascinating post tells me it's even worse than it sounds. Thanks for writing so clearly about your experiences there. Congratulations on your book. I will check it out.
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[User Picture]From: emeraldimajia
2019-01-21 10:04 pm (UTC)
Hey, thanks for getting in touch! I was just thinking today about Austin, and 2002, because in late 2002, when Arol was in Mexico getting treated for cancer, I missed out on my only opportunity to go selling in Austin; I'd just had a wisdom tooth removed, for the first time, and needed to recover. Today, coincidentally, I had a second wisdom tooth pulled. I still hope to make it to Austin sometime!
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From: (Anonymous)
2019-03-06 05:34 am (UTC)
I don't know why they thought their way was better. Obviously it wasn't bc it no longer exists. So I guess it wasn't that special. I stayed for a year. Fawn and Erim are the biggest losers I have ever met. I can only imagine how Fawn must feel, like a failure I assume. She was raised thinking she was this demigod. Now look at her....Erim is one of the dumbest people I have ever met. A user. Arol? all I can do is roll my eyes at that waste of life. Makes me sick to my stomach. Found my beautiful husband though, got his ass out of there and he thanks me everyday for opening his eyes. He just thought he was helping change the world until he saw them verbally abuse me and scream in my face and he said I don't think so. I don't know how they could think what they were doing was right. I've seen many communities thrive and succeed, unlike ZF. Karma's a bitch:)
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From: (Anonymous)
2019-04-01 11:23 pm (UTC)

Almost got sucked in!

I remember buying a zine from Zendiks at Ozzfest in Wisconsin in '97. For years afterward I'd look through it and re-read every word. Look at the pics of everyone who looked so happy and free. I had no friends, and thought that itd be great to be part of this seemingly close knit community of people. I'm sure I probably still have that 'zine stuffed in a box somewhere. After reading this and the many other things I've read about the Zendiks I'm glad I never made up my mind to go.

I do wonder where all of those people are now though. I saw the farm in WV was up for sale some years back. Is Arol still living? What of Fawn and her brood. You should do an updated post for 2019!
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[User Picture]From: emeraldimajia
2019-04-02 11:49 am (UTC)

Re: Almost got sucked in!

If you go to the main page of this blog, you'll see that I've posted tidbits, here and there, about the state of the Farm and my evolving relationship with my Zendik experience. Arol died in 2012. What I've said about fellow ex-Zendiks in the Epilogue to my memoir is about the limit of what I want to say, as I respect each person's right to deal with Zendik's legacy in her life in her own way.
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