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some signposts [Dec. 27th, 2010|01:39 pm]
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This is my personal blog, in which I write about whatever I want. Sometimes what I write concerns Zendik. But I've been gone from the farm more than three years now, and its presence has faded. So if you've come seeking information about everybody's favorite West Virginia cult (well, not everybody's--I suspect the Hare Krishnas prefer New Vrindaban), here are some signposts:

My writings about Zendik-as-cult are concentrated around December 2005/January 2006; that was when I discovered I'd been in a cult, and began investigating what that meant. Also, in October/November 2005 there are a few entries (private when I posted them, now public) in which I began to admit to myself that I had doubts about Zendik, and maybe didn't want to go back. Those entries afford a peek into the psyche of one who is still a believer, but beginning to break free.

There are, of course, references to Zendik throughout my three-plus years of blog entries, but if you want the concentrated download, feel free to head straight for it.

Now available on YouTube: "The Ballad of Zendik Farm," in which we learn the history of "Larry and Carol," and imagine an alternate universe in which (C)arol comes to her senses. I wrote this song in spring 2008.

Coming sometime, to a book store near you: "Mating in Captivity: A Memoir."
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From: (Anonymous)
2008-06-06 02:09 am (UTC)

Thank You.

Emerald, I've been reading over your some of your posts from earlier and post Zendik. I had honestly about forgotten the Zendik encounter until it crossed my mind with the video I had posted. It was March 29th in Asheville NC where that happened.

In fairness I had informed Zendik that I linked them. There has not been a sign of them. As I read through some of your posts I can clearly see the control, the belittlement of peoples Self Esteem. Like the posting of peoples weakness on the refrigerator. And there are more sins than just lying. Like manipulating people. To be honest, the material was a rambling rant and Arol seems to ramble in the one pod cast I've listened to. You are a sweet, yet, cool girl and you can sing pretty good:). I'm glad your out of it. I hope the girl I met gets out of it too. Thanks for your kind response.

Have you heard of Robert Burney? Some of your writing reminds me of him. If not, I think you would like him. I can't agree to everything he say's, but, I can't disagree either. The man is a true freedom fighter.

I've spent enough time and energy learning about them and there is a whole lot more to you than being a survivor. I like what your doing, your interest in Farming and Gardening. It's becoming a dieing thing. Especially a "City Girl" like yourSelf. I'm no Gardener my Self, though I was tempted to plant a few things this year. It would not have been much, maybe a little Indian style garden,a few hills of corn with the beans running the stalks and some squash in between. But, I thought I might be leaving town for a few months.

You area good writer, you relay yourself well, and I hardly notice a typo, LOL. There is a good person in you. Feel free to come on over and (like Cracker says) dance around the camp fire, hang around a while.

Daniel...AKA The Appalachianist.
danconwil@citcom.net

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From: (Anonymous)
2008-06-20 09:04 pm (UTC)

SIGNPOSTS

I'm looking forward to your book, and to the music. You are one fine writer, and person.

Thank you.
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From: (Anonymous)
2008-07-13 09:36 pm (UTC)
www.myspace.com/chronicleofithatsithere

thanks.

Haz
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From: (Anonymous)
2008-07-14 12:06 pm (UTC)
i'm a zendik and an ecolibrium in the same way i'm a breather or a bather, but i'm not hung up on it. living outside established order equals breathing and maintaining balance. i think it's virtuous to respect someone who helps someone else to learn that, but i'm not hung up on it. as far as i can see it, zendik is just a last name like taylor perhaps but lending coherency and clarity to the culture connected to it that intends to outlive the plague we loosely refer to here as the cult. if there's a conflict in the village or people in the ranks go sour or something, it's not going to make me denounce the zendik ethic and my place within it. i'm still me even if i'm the only good zendik left but i'm not and it's a gay argument anyway. if arol hadn't answered my call and got between me and my mom when i was two i'd be dead so i'll always be grateful for that and all the people she sent between us to help us in response to our collective call. we wanted a place that was real so we agreed to work it out. she was serious about life, so was i, so were the others who picked up our signal. they were there. we dedicated ourselves to processing out of the cult that we created by shitmouthing ourselves soemwhere so we could experience sanity and never return to that godaweful place so naturally i'm curious and to some degree befuddled as to how your journal comes off to me like an aweful relapse on my part requiring goatse. only reason i have to say i'm not physically on the farm at this very moment as much as i might want is the simple base covering issue and no one here ever discouraged me from the importance of understanding that survival is not equal to hiding behind zendik, so as you can see i'm not holding my breath like some stupid failed suicidal bum. my resources might be somewhat minimal at this time but i'm an autonomously active and interested individual and i am genuinely grateful without complaint or self righteousness for your contribution to our cause.
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[User Picture]From: emeraldimajia
2008-07-14 03:12 pm (UTC)
Hello Haz,

Thanks for writing. Aren't you the one who drew the picture of the woman with the baby on her back on the "I believe we have undeniably valid grounds for a revolutionary action" t-shirt? What do you do now?

Helen
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[User Picture]From: ephraim_oakes
2008-07-29 04:15 am (UTC)
Hi. I believe I met you some years back (2001, i think) when some friends and i took a road trip to zendik on our spring break from college. In the meanwhile i did a two year stint at a non-culty intentional community, but the bizzareness that was my week at zendik definitely was not forgotten.
I hope it's ok if i friend you.
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[User Picture]From: emeraldimajia
2008-07-29 01:59 pm (UTC)
Of course it's okay if you friend me--the more friends, the merrier. I'd be curious to hear about both your impressions/memories of Zendik, and your experience at the non-cult commune. Which one was it, and how was it? I'm quite fascinated by the idea and practice of communal living in general.
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[User Picture]From: upaya
2008-08-23 09:42 pm (UTC)
Hi, I stumbled across this blog and find it fascinating! I talked with a few folks from Zendik back when they were located near Austin. I've always been interested in cults and the politics of cults, but never been part of one, except for the whole Christianity thing when I was a child. I am eagerly awaiting your book! Adding you to my friends list if you dont mind.
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[User Picture]From: emeraldimajia
2008-08-25 10:24 pm (UTC)
of course i don't mind. and thanks for introducing yourself.
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From: ex_katieste
2009-07-04 05:40 pm (UTC)
I have never before heard of zendik, where have I been? I plan on reading the rest of your blog entries now but thanks for posting such a personal adventure that I'm sure will be able to help many others.
http://www.dynastyirondoors.com/
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From: unrezerv3rdname
2009-07-17 03:21 pm (UTC)

Regarding Zendik.................................................................

Yes- I do have much id like to share regarding Zendik Arts Farm.

Unfortunately due to the many time consuming trials and tribulations i experienced with the "become a member" register form that was nesc for me to post.- I do not have the time nor the energy to do so right now . Microsoft strikes again. Oh how they do excel at making simple tasks absurdly difficult. I shall certainly return.There is much that i have wanted to express regarding all things Zendik but had no venue until i accidently found this blog entry or whatever it is a few days ago- So for now, all i find myself able to say is.....

W.O.W.~~~~~~>(its an insider/outsider joke)
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From: unrezerv3rdname
2009-07-17 07:45 pm (UTC)

It this thread still active?

I just noticed that with the exeption of a few posts including mine- most are 2008. I have much that i have wanted to express ~~~>some ideas, assessments,experiences,etc and perhaps even have some kind of interaction/dicsussion with others on the subject/topic- Zendik.
However if this thread is dead.....
???????????
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[User Picture]From: emeraldimajia
2009-07-20 10:34 pm (UTC)

Re: It this thread still active?

I suppose it is, since you and others have posted to it recently. I myself have (obviously) not been posting much of late, but I do read and welcome all commentary.
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From: (Anonymous)
2010-01-20 01:25 am (UTC)
The place sounds truly horrible. Thanks so much for getting the the word out there - we almost went there because we're looking for an intentional community to live in. What scares me is that I'm very open and could probably become involved in a place like that quickly. It's easy to see it's a cult after reading your posts.

May you continue to grow from the healing you're going through and also may you continue to help others! What you're doing is very important.
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From: (Anonymous)
2011-11-12 09:55 pm (UTC)

Remembering

I remember you I was there in 2003. It was amazing to me that people who had all of the answers to society and how they could live a life that would change it, would be so opposed to inviting very many new people there. I remember they had a special shelf for the people who lead this precarious cult for their special foods. Arol did not take a liking to me at all. I remember us all sitting on the porch having lunch when a friendly lady stopped by to check out the farm. She made a comment that pissed Arol off and from that point forward during her stay no one was very open with this woman, except me. I thought the ideas they had were fantastic, but it was only really for the selected few that belonged. I would love to check out your book. Please send me an e-mail with that information. I always think about Zendik and what happens to a person when they decide to leave, how they integrate back into society. I am glad to see you made it out and putting this information out for others.
earthluna@yahoo.com
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From: (Anonymous)
2015-09-14 02:57 am (UTC)

Sam zendik seen in Portland oregon

The cult still lives on!
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